It’s Only Been 48 Days!!!!!!!!
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I saw my husband 5 out of 7 days last week. We met for lunch with the kids on Sunday. Tuesday, we met to sign the Separation Agreement but then we didn’t do it cause it seemed we just couldn’t do it. We wanted to talk and we wanted to share time and space. And […]
Despair, Anger, Pain, Hurt
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God, I am so mad at you. So mad. I tried so hard to not make this post but it was burning inside of me and I just needed to get it out. Over these past few years with Peter, I trusted in your path. I believed you were the creator of our marriage, that […]
Now Entering Anger
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Well, I felt a shift over the last few days. I’m still sad but I’m becoming more and more angry about the situation. Like, for real, is this my life now? I sent him a text message the other day, letting him know how pissed off and angry I was. And he called me because […]
Sadness with a Side of Pain
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I just wanted happiness and a special person to share my life with. A special person to love and cherish and laugh with and grow old with. A special person who wanted to love and be loved and be a part of all of that. But all I am left with is sadness. Sadness and […]
The Rise and Fall
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It’s been a few years since I’ve posted but it seems the pendulum has swung back to the place that it was before. That place where he just gets up and walks out of the home and decides this isn’t for him. That place he went in November/December 2015 when our engagement ended as quickly […]
So, This Happened
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What can I say? Something happened for both of us and we decided that getting married was the right thing to do! So, we did it!!!
Ummm…
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I kinda sorta didn’t stick with what I said in that last post. Yeah…lots more to come!
Seven and a Half Weeks of Stupid
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***I actually started this post a month ago but never truly finished it until today, May 10th*** Have you ever had a birthday wish come true? I honestly can’t recall, in all of my years of making birthday wishes, that there was a time when what I there wishing for, actually happened. And the speed […]
Wanna Be Happy
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But if I keep on giving my heart For people to tear apart The healing will never start So I can be happy Will I ever be happy
Love
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This was such a great day. November 14th, I remember it like it was yesterday. That day, we woke up and had an appointment to check out a wedding venue, The O’Neil house. It would be beautiful for a small intimate group. We’d stay in the room at the top of the hallway that night. […]