Well, today is the Christmas Party that it seems I won’t be attending. He said something about it last week but he didn’t confirm it before he left…he hasn’t talked about it all day. I guess I’m not going…
12/10 @ 12:18pm
Z – Just thinking about all this stuff…
P – Yeah me too
He came home to change his clothes and go to the Christmas Party. I did find it odd that they were still having a party when he’d said last week, the company was shutting down effective January 4th and he wouldn’t have a job. It’s just not adding up…
@5:25pm
P – I’m a mess Z completely and totally hate letting you know that and am afraid to let you in
Z – Let me in…I’m here for a reason…just let me in….please…you said I saved your life, remember thatn?
Z – Let me all the way in…Or, we can’t make it but I know we can, I really know we can…
Z – I’m forgiving and faithful and understanding…let me cover you in love and help with the pain…Just think about it…
P – Is is because you think you have nowhere else to go. I just can’t believe you would want me after all of this.
Z – This is not true
Z – I do have places to go
Z – I have always found a way to make life work, and I have a ton of friends who’d give me shelter should I really need it
Z – But I still believe in us and I promise in everything, EVERYTHING that if you believe in us, we can make it thru…I LOVE YOU! We are stronger together….we just have to open up entirely…you have to trust me completely and let me all the way in
Z – Let me in…
P – There is so much though my whole life is a sham
Z – Have you ever been able to admit that to anyone else?
P – Just that then I run
Z – Well, I love you, not because of what you have given me but because of how you make me feel….
Z – Not because of your past
Z – Not because of your money
Z – Not because you do things
Z – I love you, and I feel so loved when you look at me….
Z – And no matter what you tell me, I love you…and we will make it thru…I promise on everything….we can start with a fresh heart and a clean slate….but only if YOU can do it….I know I can and I will love you no matter what…
Z – Don’t run away, run to me….arms are wide open
@11:33p
Z – Peter….
He never came home…
