Two days ago, I discovered some things about Peter and his views on equality. I was troubled, to say the least, and I really didn’t know what to do…I have friends whose spouses disagree on major issues…those are just things that they don’t talk about, at all, for the sake of their marriages because they just have different views. So, eventually, I would get over it, I’m sure…
Yesterday, I think we had the first real disagreement…I know, everyone has them, some stupid, some necessary but this one kind of threw me off. The girls had locked us out of their room…I was cleaning up mess after mess all day long…it was just a day! He came home briefly and then had to get to something for work so he was in and out rather fast.
When he returned home, he came in and started cleaning. Now, I was just getting the girls to bed and my plan was to finish sweeping and then mop but he gets all frustrated and starts working on the bathroom. I walk in and ask him what he is doing? He turns around and snaps at me that he is cleaning because it’s dirty.
It hurt my feelings…I mean, here I am, pretty much a stay at home mom, and apparently, I am failing…he’s not said that my job is cleaning but I feel like with him at work all day long, I should keep the house half way decent and tonight, his actions let me know it wasn’t good enough.
I cried myself to sleep. He came upstairs and tried to cuddle with me but I just couldn’t reciprocate. I wasn’t feeling it and I started to doubt my new life.
